a day of sadness and reflection...

I do not know how any of you folks do your blogs, but as I have said before, I write mine up in the confines of my comfortable email page and then copy and paste to Blogger to publish. More times than not I copy and paste to Drafts because it is either unfinished, needing an ending or for me to try to correct any errors prior to publishing.

Yesterday's post was actually done Monday afternoon and put into my Drafts until I finished it and published it yesterday. Otherwise with my memory I just might not remember all of the things that happened yesterday. Better known as "short term memory loss".

Shortly after creating a post and placing it in my Drafts, I received the awaited and anticipated email from a precious young lady, Malinda. She and her husband, Todd, are young enough to be my children, but age just didn't seem to make any difference at all in our friendship, which I so much treasure.
Malinda had emailed me earlier, actually early September that Todd's dad was in the hospital with serious heart problems again. Then on September 6, I again received an email telling me that Todd's dad had taken a turn for the worse.
On the afternoon of Monday, September 11, 2006 I got an email from Malinda telling me that Todd's dad, Coleman Edward "Booger" Lee, had passed away that morning at 8:12 in our local hospital.

Yesterday I posted the already prepared post to my blog, but today I am addressing the sadness and grief I have and feel for Todd as he and his dad were so close. He does have siblings, which I do not know. I met Todd and Malinda over 13 years ago and we have a great friendship. They are one of the closest and devoted to each other couple that I have ever met at such a young age. Relationships like theirs, tells me alot about them -the persons they really are.

Physically I can go tonight as they receive friends and an evening funeral will follow at 7 p.m. Emotionally I cannot go. Over a year ago, I had to leave an out of town funeral that I had attended and had gone alone to, for a dear aunt of mine. It took a toll on me for reasons that I cannot control; is not good for my overall health and well being. I talked to the doctor about what happened and he told me for the betterment of my health I should avoid anything upsetting as seeing one grieving or hurting breaks my heart. I have not always been that way. I could handle it then. I cannot now.

So this morning I called Todd. He and I had our own little special talk and he certainly understands. Although I will not be there in body, I will be there tonight in my thoughts and prayers.

Today, also is the day that Susan Godfrey will deliver a living baby into this world with only a few hours of life to live. The baby has Potter's Syndrome which means the baby has no kidneys. Yet another sad part of my day. I know that Susan and all the family with God's graces will make it through this. I cannot imagine how being in that situation must be, but to bear it all hasta be done with help and Susan has God right there with her and the family and baby today. God Bless you Susan. Susan chose to have God in her life. I heard of Susan's plight through my good blogging friend, Kristi (happymama).

I am glad it is a gloomy, dreary day here where my home is, cause today, had the sun been shining, I would still have this still, quiet, subdued sadness inside me. There is a time for fun and laughter, but also for tears and thinking. Today I am doing the latter.

God Bless!